Living My Best Life
It is the eve of my 32nd birthday, and boy has time flown by. It feels like i was just 29 and anticipating turning 30. Now 30 has come and gone and i will be 32! I can honestly say that so far i have enjoyed my 30s and i can see that all of the hard work that i put into my 20s have paid off. My entire 20s was spent in school, learning to be single, moving from the east to south, and to the west coast, building the foundation for my career, and deepening my relationship with God. My 30s so far have been about thinking about the lifestyle i hope to have one day ( husband, maybe kids, and some travel sprinkled in there), and furthering my career (started by doctoral degree!). Over the last few months i have found myself shifting focus towards the things that i consider essential for my future, paying off debt, professional development, deepening my relationship with God, and allowing myself to embrace the desire to love.
A lot has changed for me over the last 10 plus years, and i am certainly not where i thought i would be. If you had asked me when i was 16 where i would be at 32 i would say, married with kids, and working. You would have probably gotten zero mentions about the type of relationships i would have, the career i would attain, where i would live or how i would live my life. To my 16 year old self my plan A was very solid, to my 31 year old self looking back my Plan A was very shallow. Its funny how retrospect has a way of helping you realize how little you knew about yourself, the world around you and the people in this world, when you attempt to make "solid" plans for your life. If i could sit with my 16 year old self or even my 21 year old self, and tell her what i am doing now she would probably freak and think i was living a dream life, even though being married by 25 was a huge part of my plan A and hasn't happened yet.
The point is that no part of my current life was listed in my Plan A, or my Plan B. It turns out living my best life has been about taking risk and hoping for the best, recognizing that nothing is permanent, and realizing that making a change for the better is as easy as making up your mind to do so. I am happy to say that where i am is exactly where God wants me to be. As a woman of faith who has learned and is still learning to trust Gods leading and timing, he has been the one to carry me this far, and because of that i am tremendously grateful. This doesn't mean life is perfect and that i have all i desire, i still want a family one day, and still hope to travel more, but my life so far is a testament that scrapping the plan A life, taking risk, a-lot of prayer, and being open to opportunities can be the start of a life beyond what you've ever dreamed.
Jeremiah 29: 11
"For i know the plans i have for you, declares the Lord, " plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Matthew 6: 33
"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."